grey week ?

Hello Bloggers


so it has yet again been a while since my last blog, but now that summer is soon at a close I think they shall become more frequent


Ok then... well

this week was quite a sad one for me as more than half of my closest of friends left to go to S.S... but in less than a few hours they shall be all back XD.... unless one caught swine flu and died but its quite unlikely O_o ...

Anyway ..

Ermm this week was not all bad. for one I realised I don't give God the time he deserves all the time... It's like when I have free time I can't get my self to praise him, but when I am busy I can fit him in all over... one thing for certain is that I need to do some Major quiet time and try make it a point to make it a daily thing.

Soo... in this period of time where I did not have all my friends I did quite a bunch of stuff like...

1/ go have a late night swim in st' Julian's
2/ watch a movie
3/ get kinda closer to my family
4/ began to sketch
5/ Got closer to some people I don't usually hang out with
6/ got better at guitar =)
7/ had long walks
8/ discovered more about my self


You know... even tho I missed alot of people... I think that with all their prayers.... they helped me answer a big problem of mine...

I believe tonight calls for a little adventure of my own....

I shall leave you now as I feel God is calling me to go praise him.

God bless you all

Steve out

Hmm...

Yesterday I quite simply had nothing to do all night...

Got a msg from my good friend Mich, and decided to go to p.v where I enjoyed a few hours just chilling with with a good old friend of mine.

After a while i caught a bus ride up to G's and met sar and Bernice.

went for a walk,
helped some lost Swedish ppl find their way home lol
and then just chilled at the park.



Dnt sound so great ??

well it kinda was...

and here is where the blog gets interesting.


So basically yesterday everyone spread out and went to different places.

It was either half a group where invited to a house and the rest where not,
twas a girls night
or ppl where just too far away.


Dispite all that stuff I still enjoyed myself.
Yes, OK I saw it strange that after all the change I have been through these past 3 years
I still had to resort going to p.v because of some stupid situation.

Now the thing is this... I don't need anything or anyone to have fun. If I wanted to I could have done a whole night of what I use to see as my perception of fun... But I did not...

No yesterday was more of an observation...

I was seeing how some people have become since well just a few months ago...

Results have their pros's and con's tho the final outcome... Ti's just a massive question mark..

Anyway... I am not gonna let these things break down my day =D


GBU ... ALL


Steve out

An amazing weekend

Well, it has been quite a while since my last blog... loads has happend but im just gonna say what I feel like lol


ok soo first off I was in a bad mood this past month... those who know me know why, and those who don't... well lets just say I had it preety rough.

Insomma I realy needed this weekend...
It gave me a chance to catch a breath of fresh air and let me set aside some of the shit in my life..


Ok so here is what happend...

Friday --> Had work where I got some bad news... was then off to a whole day at gym as to try and take off some stress, but... to no avail. Then I realised I was going to be late for mustard seed, so I showerd off and walked up to St.Julians.

A Mugi tea, a 7up float and some crisps with Jesus on the side... It called for the perfect night to look into the mirror as to what I have become. I grabbed my bible every now and again and tried to find some guidence... but my heart was not there yet. I had to dig deeper and meet God half way.

I reached a point where it fealt like I was not even socialising any more... as in my body was there and I was talking... but the real me was deep at thaught . Hence my bad mood.

After M.seed we drove up to Buggieba and just got an ice-cream and relaxed for a while.


Saturday ---> woke up at like 12pm and went up to the airport to welcome home Krissie XD ( so glad your back sis) I then got a lift home with Bernice and went for a quick swim at exiles, where I met Zoe,Kai,Hillary etc... Tho I was still in a pissed mood, infact for some reason It grew as the day moved on but hey "se la vie" you know....
I then went to the BBQ of comm which was quite nice and then asked Simon to crash at his place as I needed a break from home ( 10x bro ). Some time passed and a buch of us took up the invattion to go chill at Annies flat where Simon introduced us to "20 Q " lol I swear that is some freaky shit XD.

ermm about an hour passed and Lara,Simon and I decided to go chill outside rotating who gets to swing on the hamok and having... and interesting conversation lol. I forgot all about my problems and just well... had fun = ).

I got some amazing friends lol

ermm then me n Sim walked to his flat and crashed.


Sunday ---> after four hours of sleep I woke up lol. with a good morning said in a raspy voice a coffee and a moment to appreciate the talent of Simon's magic fingers on his bass XD, we where off to the best mass with the most interesting character that I have ever attended lol.
the Alter was a pool table with a white cloth to cover the green and the jokes between the small crowd of people who somehow all knew each other made my morning that little bit more special lol.

A doughnut and a pea cake and we where off to take van to Krissie to do some baking lol. we got back and Sim and I played a game of table tennis where I was served XD. Tho seeing Simon beaten by a kid was worth it lol ( in all fairness that kid most probably plays every day there )


ermm we then had Lunch at simon's whilst watching some F1, had a 30 min nap and went off to Sliema with Char =D.

Went home. Washed, changed and got my jester and Boone hat for Lanfy's high tea get together, which was fun :)


ermm I then got home, cleaned my room... well lol and went online where I had a conversation I now regret... ( if you are reading... I am sorry and I didn't mean it. Ill ttyl)

mehh...


anyway... I am off to bed as I have my one before the last day of work tomorrow... Wip di freaking do.


God bless you all

Steve out.

my white room

I am here, alone at home...
I got absolutely nothing to do so I decided to write a proper blog.

Today I had work.. After which I went to spend some time at the millennium chapel to say a quick hello to my dad =). I then went to go see a few y4j ppl at exiles and then came home...

and now here I am... on my big black chair with thorn arm rest's, typing away at my laptop.... trying to get my mind off things from my past.... present ... and future.I know I should be all positive and stuff... and I am. I guess that since I have nothing better to do.... no one interesting to speak to.... no one to hang out with at the moment.... its just me and God.... and I am going wild!

I have set myself in a huge white room......
a cool breeze kisses my chest. The rain is falling down hard. I close my eyes... take a deep breath and with a single step I begin to fall....the strong wind forces my arms up... mussels tense....eyes closed tight burst open showing my eyes to appear as if all colour has gone ....

I realise a long battle cry which makes a lion's roar seem like a whimper.... and then... with no effort at all I shoot out of the pit and sprout out huge, white angle wings.I look at my hands and clench my fists. I flap my wings and in no time at all, disappear into the horizon...


Make of this what you wish.

Steve Out

Silence

had an 18th party... twas fun =)



yeah..

heyyy

I have just woken up from my first real sleep in 2 months and guess what... I'm still tired loool.
I am enjoying the fact that I have nothing to do today , its been a while since I just had some Steve time. I think we should all make room for our self sometimes =D.

OK soo I have some stuff I want to explain to my readers =P

right ....
so first off I know I have been real moody lately and well I got fed up of people stating the obvious and asking if I am in a bad mood when the see me on my own

ye it would be coz im in a bad mood but when I will be on my own the only people I would relay talk to know who they are..... I am not trying to piss off anyone but honestly if u see me in a bad mood just talk to me like you normally would. I will get better after I go pray and stuff so don't worry.

ermmm...

so yesterday I had Christabel's 15th birthday party thing at mellieha, I must say it was nice to get away for a while even tho I did not stay all that long.

I then got a lift with Charlene and Christabel where Chris kept changing every single song till we got to sliema until she found the one song she wanted XD drove Charlene crazy ( 10x for the lift bdw )

After that I showered, changed , ate and did some of my log book. later I went off to community
where Mig gave one of the best talks I have heard in a good while. I am probably saying this because I relay felt like it was directed to me. lol it was shit scary but in a good way XD

later we went to Birgu to some fancy bar where matt got tipsy on a SINGLE GLASS OF WHITE WINE lol can anyone say cheap date . We then went to step on and mig gave me a lift home =)

Now I am listening to the new Hillsong album which krisse has just sent me XD * LOVE YA SIS *

wow I feel sooo much better :) I feel like that even tho my life is meant to be realy bad hekk as if I just know God has got me coverd and as long as I stay close to him... The world can not break me down XD.

I am off

God bless you all =D

Steve out .

SUMMER day 1

WAAAAAAAAAA XD

my summer has started, and up till now it has been amazing.

mela.....

as soon as I finished my paper which was quite easy, I went to pull out some cash and went off to get a... dr juice, gogi berry smoothie and a jar of sea water to give to Kai lol

well smoothie is coz I know she loves em
and sea water is coz she can't swim ><.
I am gonna say from now since i have already been asked... I did not do all that coz I like her :P, shes like a sister to me .

anyway I dropped those off, stood a while... then went off to millennium chapel for some quiet time :) After that I got some amazing sushi and ate it on the pier next to the sea, was amazing knowing I do not have to hurry to get home and study XD insomma..... then I went over to my friend Tara and swam; and my plan was to head off to home after that.

Twas not the case...

met matt. urp whilst he was looking for parking, got in his car and ended up looking for parking with him, then we went to exiles and met loads of lovely ppl where we played wear wolf again lol but Simon made it interesting and mad just a ware wolf XD well done sim n hope ur *&^(%$ up shoulder get healed soon dude

ermmm just got home... I know I got community in like 2 hrs but I am up for anything lol. I rly enjoy not planing stuff and just going on a random adventure. It's amazing how much stuff you find to do when you don't plan anything.

anyway, I go shave,shower and change

Tc ppl and God bless

Steve out .