Sunny days

Hello readers

Y4J talks are now over I'm afraid; all that's left is the mass which is today... though it should be just as fun and amazing =).
Anyway the talks where brilliant, so well done to all who where involved including Tuzi, Fr ray etc...... Seriously well done guys. I must admit being my first time going to the Lenten talks of Y4j... I was impressed with the performance but most of all the turn out so once again.. well done XD .

You know..... this week I realised a few things about my self.
>>> *flash back*<<<
I was having a real shit week, but I was under the impression that I was living a good life, which gave me a little self esteem.... all because I stopped going to bad places and doing bad things.
I failed to realise that there was more to it than that. " It's not about me, its about HIM"
every time I hurt someone or turned my back on them I was doing it to God ..... even if I had the right of way. You see we are all In God's image and we have to respect that.
One thing I found out is something that we all know but find it IMPOSSIBLE to apply in today's world.... that is to love your neighbour.
If you put all the commandments together it basically sums up to that same message.

( what a taught for a 17 year old to have during a lecture on international marketing ey XD)

The next thing that smacked me in the face was that I had to come to facts and accept who I am... If I stay saying " I'm not able to" or " I'm not good enough" It's like turning to God and saying you know you did a good job creating me.... but I think you could have done it better. Sadly enough that taught passes trough my mind quite often.
Being a competitive person I always try for the best and if I don't get there I take it against my self .
Recently I have come to terms with my self and accepted a few things about me, now I'm not saying now that life is all candy and rainbows lool far from it XD
but hell I'm on the way.

( bdw flash back finished up there somewhere didn't feel like finding it he he)

Besides all that I have decided to take a step in my life.... that step for me is a mile long and consists of me dying to self yet again.

I made a pact with my self and God as to take things slow, and to let Him to choose my right of passage.... not to run head first into something and let it all fall down on top of me after short period of time.


Anyway I think i wrote enough for one day lool
hope I didnt sound like an emo XD

God bless you all


Steve out.